My First Surgery
For the first time in my life, I had surgery. It was an operation I always wanted, but this time it was actually because of a medical recommendation hahaha. I think the next photo explains it by itself.
Hahaha, it was a whole experience. Last month I ended up in the hospital because of an infection I had, so I stayed there for like 5 days. Everything went well, and right now I’m great… “almost” hahaha.
I’m writing this new post 4 days after my surgery, and yesterday at midnight something happened that made me feel really proud.
Yesterday I had to deliver my final project for the first semester of my specialization, and honestly, at the start of the day I was feeling like I couldn’t make it possible… why? Because in the middle of the semester I started having a lot of health issues. I also had to work, make some client projects for my business, keep advancing on my master’s degree thesis, work on this project, and for the first month of this semester I was also taking Japanese classes, intensive ones, so yeah, I couldn’t dedicate as much time as I wanted.
This weekend I had to rest. The doctors told me to rest at least 3 days and yeah, I was feeling horrible. I was bleeding almost every time, feeling weaker, with a lot of sensitivity, and my best friend came to spend 2 days with me, helping me with a lot of my necessities and playing together too.
I actually started writing this post the same day of the operation, but I couldn’t keep sitting. I tried to work on my laptop from my bed, but I couldn’t do that either. So Sunday arrived, and it was the last day, and my work looked like this.
My work isn’t finished yet, and I didn’t like the anatomy on my Wolverine too much. At the start I honestly thought that I had to quit it, and this is something I regret in my life. When something feels difficult, or when I do not feel good emotionally, I tend to quit. But I’m changing this, and I didn’t know if I was going to make it…
At the same time, my brother sent me a message in the morning telling me about the delivery of a client project that was due that same day. I really related to that, and I told him, keep up, make your “One for All.”
This is a phrase from My Hero Academia. It is the main attack of the No. 1 Hero, and when it feels like he possibly can’t keep going, he gives everything with that punch.
So I told him to try to finish it, and if he couldn’t, at least he already made a great job.
He did a great job, and I felt motivated. So I kept going too. I gave my own One for All, and the result was this.
It isn’t perfect, but I gave my best possible work. I didn’t finish it, but I feel different. I fought against this inner devil inside me that tells me to quit, and I didn’t.
At the end of the day I was bleeding a lot because of the surgery, I couldn’t stand for too long, but I took a shower and finally I could sleep.
Probably I won’t pass because I didn’t complete Wolverine’s suit, the retopology, or the textures 😅, but it was the best I could possibly do.
This semester I had a lot of health problems, as I told you. I had a strong infection called orchitis, fatty liver, atopic dermatitis a digestive issues that basically made me feel like I wasn’t processing food well and I was eating a lot of shitty food, so I was feeling weaker, and I also stressed my body by doing a lot of exercise, even hiking (that isn't bad and I love it but I had to rest).
I threw up a lot because of this illness, and almost every week I got sick, so yeah… I’m turning myself into a better version of myself. I’m eating better, taking care of my body, and taking care of myself.
It is difficult because I don’t want to be like this. I’m 24 years old, and having a lot of problems like this really is alarming.
But I made it.
I finished my work, and even if I pass or not, I will keep giving all of myself 💪